The War in Heaven.

Something that has been interesting me a lot lately has been the idea of a war in Heaven, now I'm not too read up on the trusty 'ole bible so I don't know if that was covered in it. If you've ever seen the movie The Prophecy, it'll give you a story in which God replaced the Angels as his chosen in favour for Humans. Some Angels (Gabriel, played by Christopher Walken) hated this decision and were determined to tip the balance in their favour once again. A war raged on in which Gabriel's Angels fought against the Angels loyal to God, a stalemate insued for thousands of years resulting in no souls reaching heaven after they passed on. Gabriel went in search for a soul which would end the War in Heaven and see the Angels back in God's favour once more. Simon (Loyal to God, Played by Eirc Stoltz) heard about Gabriel's plan and asended to Earth and hid the soul from Gabriel. Somewhere along the way (i'm not gonna ruin the film for ya !) Lucifer joins in the fun and has a laugh with the lads and all that jazz !

Anyway, the film depicts the Angels as being killers, soldiers, and murderers in the service of God. Mentions how Lucifer and His Angels wanted to be Gods among Angels and were caste down and away from Gods light.

Gabriel : We cast out Lucifer's army, you and I. We threw their rebel thrones from the wall.
Simon : They wanted to be Gods
Gabriel : I don't wanna be a God Simon. I just wanna make it like it was, before the lie. When he loved us best.

I find all this interesting to consider. A war in which Mankind can't comprehend, the idea of Angels killing Angels, God being an almost malevolent entity in thought or being totally detached from the results of his actions (If this War is on going because of his actions, why doesn't He stop it ?)

Here's another quote from the movie that I like, refers to some of the above points which i find interesting:

Thomas Daggett: Did you ever notice how in the Bible, when ever God needed to punish someone, or make an example, or whenever God needed a killing, he sent an angel? Did you ever wonder what a creature like that must be like? A whole existence spent praising your God, but always with one wing dipped in blood. Would you ever really want to see an angel?

And another :

Thomas Daggett: Years later, of all the Gospels I learnt in seminary school, a verse from St. Paul stays with me. It is perhaps the strangest passage in the Bible, in which he writes: "Even now in Heaven there are Angles carrying savage weapons."

Anyways, I'm not gonna rant on and on, I'll be here forever ! It's a pretty good film, I'd recommend you watch it if ya find that stuff interesting.

Start of the new Year..

..Was a pretty shit one for me ! Broke my arm on New Years Eve while walking home, snapped my Humerus bone in two with a few broke shards here and there. Ended up spending 3 days in Hospital and had an operation to insert a metal plate into my arm to hold it together ! I never realised how much of a hinderence a broken bone would be. 3 months later and it's starting to feel normal again but right after it happened I could do fuck all ! Couldn't open doors, lift anything with weight to it, open bottles or jars, packets of anything, put my jacket on, tie my shoes, and even wash myself properly. The worst part for me though was not being able to get to the gym, which I was doing at least 2-3 days before I broke my arm. I was on a healthy buzz, gym, eating better and what not.

It's been 3 months and I feel terrible about my health and muscle tone. Maybe it's just my mind thinking crazy things but I feel softer in places I thought I wasn't before and it's really getting to me, feeling and noticing my body changing slightly doesn't sit well for me. I'm pretty sure I'm still the same weight I was before it happened, 11st. Its just getting most of that weight back to muscle mass is my target ( I wouldn't even look like I've "put on weight") So its gotta be my mind playing with me !

Thankfully though, I'll be getting my bike next week so I'll be cycling everywhere and my arm should be back to normal in 2 months or so, I'll have to start off light again with the weights obviously but i'm fine with that, as long as I get back to doing something I'll be happy again !

I do have a bad ass scar and an imagination to make up crazy stories as to how I got it ! :D

Billy no mates.

I've just tried to follow other peoples blogs, I haven't a clue where to click. Ended up following my own blog.. Ha !

Music

Heh I'm really starting to like this blog malarkey.

Anyways, ever get that moment when talking to someone about music when you realise you have absolutely nothing in common in that department ? Could be on a night out, with a new friend, or a friend of a friend you're chatting to at a party or something. Happens to me a lot of the time and can be quite annoying ! I wouldn't say I have a strange taste in music, far from it It's just not very popular with the average person. I'd like Metal to use a broad term but to narrow it down to Sub-Genres I'd like Thrash, Death, and Black Metal (wiki if you don't know what the difference would be :D). Now I'd also like Blues, actually I love it and Classical music. I wouldn't call myself a music snob or anything like that, I can appreciate a good song regardless of genre.

As you could probably imagine, gets a little tricky trying to make a connection with some bands or artists mentioned so during conversations I just start off by mentioning the more popular or easy on the ear genres (Blues and Classical) and work from there. Another thing that gets to me is when I do happen to mention the more extreme genres, I'm met with strange faces and comments such as:

"I don't know how you can listen to that stuff, it's just noise and shouting !".

It really really isn't, I can admit it's an acquired taste and some of the stuff I listen to now sounded like noise to me years ago but you get past the "noise" factor and actually hear every note, every lyric, every melody or harmony clearly. Well actually.. some of the stuff can just be pure noise and shouting I can admit, but whatever this is my rant !! You appreciate little things about the songs that no one else will hear until they actually sit down and *listen* to it properly.

I like my music for reasons a lot of people would, it makes me feel something or just sounds really good on the ears, more the emotional aspect for me though. A lot of the Death, Thrash and Black metal get my adrenaline going, I feel pumped up and have massive urges to rock out with my cock out, not literally of course.. Well.. Only at home.. Anyway. I listen to that stuff when I'm angry, or in the mood for a few heavy riffs with double bass pedals blasting so I can headbang or even oddly enough, just to chill out. It isn't all heavy riffs and shouting, some metal guitarists are the most talented musicians I've heard, writing amazing pieces that are amazing to listen to ! I'm listening to Fermented Offal Discharge by Necrophagist as I type, that'd be a heavy "noise" type song but with brilliantly written riffs and solos ! Check it out ;).

The Blues and Classical stuff would be the same but not when I'm down or unhappy, I listened to these and find myself really appreciating the musical ability and talent, it just sounds so lovely most of the time. Perfect for chilling out and relaxing to, light listening I like to call it. Although some of the Classical stuff can be bit heavy, not so much the blues though.

Well that's enough ranting for me really.. Until i get the urge to post again !

Thinking back.

I find myself thinking back to my younger self a lot recently and comparing the old me to the new me. I'm surprised to be honest ! Before I was more emotional, caring and vaulnerable, I put myself out on the line more to help people by taking on their problems as my own, I knew it wasn't healthy and I knew it was dangerous but I couldn't stop, it just happened that way. When i think back through the years I think of them as blocks, mainly due to the people I've had relationships with at those times. They've affected me the most, shaping my emotional personality more than anything else and I'm thankful for each relationship, no matter how shit or rubbish it was or hard it seemed now and then I'm still happy they happened and that I could experience them.

I wouldn't say I'm a better person now than I was back then, I guess it's all relative to whats going on now in my life. I know for sure that my old self would suffer just as badly now as he did all those years ago (I talking like i'm 70 or something..) with the current events that are going on now in my life, so i'm thankful that my present self is able to stay above the water and not be overwhelmed by everything.

I'm more socialable, out going and feel more like the person I always wanted to be when I was younger which is a nice thing of course, still a few "improvements" and adjustments I need to make but I'm getting there at least.

When I said earlier that I was "more emotional, caring.." and so on, I didn't mean that I wasn't emotional or caring these days. I feel that I'm more in control of my emotions which is clearly a good thing, it's just that I seem to have a barrier in place to stop myself getting attached to something I really shouldn't be or I'm more weary of things going on instead of stomping blindly into things.

Anyway, I don't really know where i'm going with this, I didn't really think it out but who cares ?! It's my blog :D

Cya :)